Deceptions

You can't really judge a person. No matter how bad some other people might say about a certain person, still you can't judge right away, still you can't trust your first impression. And it's really wrong saying that "First impression last". Because persons may be bad at some point but i always believe, they have their good/angelic sides or vice versa. So, dapat wag kang magsalita ng patapos. Coz maybe that person maybe bad at you for now but in the future, you'll realize.. she's/he's not that bad anyway. Hindi talaga na memeasure ang kakayahan, attitude and maturity ng isang tao.

Everything has a reason. Some of us might not know the real reasons why we do stuffs that later we regret. You know why?? Because sometimes our wrong moves or actions are just the result of a big mistake. A domino effect. Just to make it clear, take this example: A child product of a broken family. Kung magrebelde sya later on, the parent issue has a big factor in it. Ano ung reason nya why she/he is doing it? She might not see, she may not admit it, but the main roots of it is the...." absence of a family". I myself is a product of a broken family and i can attest that it is really difficult. Growing up without them and ipasa pasa sa mga relatives. I'd been in that stage na nagiging rebelde na pala ako, without my knowing. People saw me na mabait and strong. but now ko lang nalaman that i'd been rebellious. If hindi pa nasettle yung issue about the absence of a family, andaming pwedeng gawin na hindi mo alam narerebelde kana pala, drugs, inom, barkada, sex and lust for money. At that stage, hindi mo malalaman na nagiging rebelde kana pala. Iisipin mo lang, that everybody is doing it, na trend un, and nagpapakasaya ka lang. You might not know the reasons why your doing it, later mo lang marereliaze, it's the unsettle issue about... " the absence of a family". What i can advice, settle it with yourself, have a battle in the mirror, asking questions sa sarili mo. Nobody can help you but yourself. It all starts from within.

Expectations. We do have expectations for ourselves and for others. But sometimes, our expectations for them may kill them or be the hindrance of their own happiness. Too much expectations can cause discomforts, confusions and lost of self identity. Because if someone is expecting too much from you na hindi mo nman kayang abutin, it can manipulate you. Doing such thing for that person and not for yourself. Mahirap yun. Everytime your with that person who expects too much from you, feeling mo, mali lahat ng ginagawa mo and u shrink! Alam mo yung parang grade 1 kang tinuturuang magsulat. Walang kang kumpyansa sa sarili mo. And thats the time that you seek people that will make you feel comfortable where u can express yourself. Ang masama eh kung ung mga taong sinasamahan mo eh, mabubuti ba? Matutulong ka? The best way to do is talk, have an open relationship. Tell it straight kung hindi mo kaya ung iniexpect nya, and that your not comfortable kasi hindi kana si ikaw. hehehe.. Tell that " I just want to be myself..ganito lang ako eh... "

Big Big Fraud. Tsk. It's the 2nd time na hindi sya makagraduate. I know it's really frustrating specially na hinihintay ka ng lahat na makagrad. Her tita from abroad is the one financing her studies ( sister ng mother nya). Ano na lang sasabihin nun na hindi na nman sya nakagrad?? Naawa ako sa mother nya, sya ung nalagay sa gitna. She's protecting her daughter and also caring for the health and emotion of her sister. Ano bang gagawin nya?? She suggested na wag na lang daw ipaalam na hindi sya nakagrad. And just pretend that nkagrad na sya. When i knew it, sabi ko, pwede rin, but at the back of my mind it's really impossible. Hahanapan sya ng picture with toga, sa stage with her parent. Aguy! But she said, she can manage it. But i told her to try negotiating with her dean kung pwede lang na umakyat sya but not officially graduate. Para isang subject lang nman, just have an agreement na babalikan nya yun, she can't get her diploma and transcript unless reenroll the subject. But sabi nya.. di daw papayag ung dean. Sana try nya na lang noh? Agree nman ung mother basta daw me mapakita lang silang picture pag uwe dito this june.Heee.. katakot.. Humm sana kausapin na lang nya ng masinsinan tita nya, what i am concern kasi later on pag nalaman, dalawa pa sila ng nanay nya mapapasama. haaay... ano na lang?

The best way... Seek for God's Word. Pray and read you bible everyday. U'll get a lot of wisdom from it. And you know what?? thru praying, talking to God, it can give you a lot of realizations. ;) Im doing it now.. (tagal ko na sana ginawa toh) and everyday i can smile. ;)


Ang drama ata ng entry ko? humm.. we just had a long conversation over dinner which is very helpful. Im happy that we're talking like that kasi nakakadagdag kaalaman specially now that i have a son.

Btw, sus.. me foreigner na sa blog ko. Dapat na akong magenglish!! waaaaaaaaaaaah.. nu ba yan.. mabuti pang magsolve na lang ako whole day ng algebra, trigo at logorithmics.. kesa buong blog entry ko eh english... poor ako sa english!!!

Hahahahaa!!